Cali here I come!

This time tomorrow, I'll be relaxing in my hotel in California. I'll FINALLY be going on my much anticipated vacation! The wait is finally over! We leave for the airport tomorrow around 6 am. This night owl mentality is going to bite me in the butt come tomorrow morning! But I'm happy were leaving so early (less time to wait!). So I'll be in Cali from June 23rd to July 2nd. And I won't have my laptop, so I won't be able to post a blog or anything. But I've went longer than nine days between posts anyways! And the only people that ever reads these are my mom, boyfriend, and cousin. Yeah, I'm pathetic!! Just kidding.

Anywhoo... I'll finally be able to experience Disney Land for the first time. And with some pretty awesome people! So I'm all packed and ready to go. I can't believe I was able to stuff nine days worth of clothes and toiletries in a small carry on suitcase! But thanks to my mom, it happened! Yeah this isn't a very long blog, I just thought I'd post about leaving! 

And I'll leave the blog saying this... This will be my view for the next week... <3

Meagan <3

We bleed maroon

I'm currently watching the college world series. A&M vs. California. A tad ironic, my school going against my vacation hot spot for this summer. (T-minus two days!!) And it's an elimination game. Currently the score's 7-3 Cali. Ah it's not looking good for the boys in maroon tonight. BUT... no matter what happens in tonights game, I'm proud of my school! Regional and Super regional champs. Sounds pretty darn good to me. ALSO, they won the Big 12 tournament. Im very proud to say I'll be going to this school come august. If there's anything I have to offer A&M, it'll be my school spirit!! If A&M loses the game tonight and is out of the world series, oh well, at least they got there in the first place!

Michael Wacha (did a great job pitching so far)

Gig em'!!!!

Meagan <3

I need prayer

After spending some time in the prayer room at my church, I've learned a lot of things about myself and my relationship with God.


I've felt a mixture of emotions while really looking into who I am within my God. Shame, regret, selfish, etc. But I've also felt some very different emotions. Happiness, Love, freedom, etc. Well, they're not all emotions, but you get the picture! I've looked at who I've been over the past year or so, and how well I have given my time and love to God. I don't like what I've seen for the most part. BUT, compared to the year or so before that, I can definitely see an improvement. I've tried hard to cleanse myself of certain worldly desires, and I've been successful in some, not so much in others. Thats being human though. Messing up time and time again, but always finding shelter and forgiveness within the arms of Our Savior. So the past week, I've been making some life changes that will hopefully strengthen my frail relationship with God.


First off, releasing my anger I have for my brother. I've been so angry with him for so long, for various things, I don't even remember a time where I felt nothing but love for him. That's really sad, and my anger turns me into a person I NEVER wanted to be. So over the next few months, I'm really going to try to let that anger go, and to try and let my attitude reflect that of Christ. Anger can be all consuming, and can be blinding. Don't let that happen to you.


Second off,  letting God show me what he wants with my relationship with my boyfriend. I've been ignoring him for too long about what he wants. Any relationship you have should reflect how good your relationship is with Christ. So I'm really going to try. And I know he is too. Thats not saying the past four months have been evil or anything. They haven't. I'm happy to say so far, we've stayed away from temptations. The problem is, we haven't really talked too much about what is going on with our relationships with God. And a relationship without God will fall apart. So were just going to try to implement God more into our lives. I'm excited to see what happens.


Third off, college. I stress so much about what will happen when I go to college. BUT, it's time for me to just take a breath, and let God take care of the rest. Just because I go to college doesn't mean I have to start partying, missing church, having sex, etc. I will NOT be like every other college kid. Yeah, I might mess up. But I will not let things like that define my life at A&M. Simple at that.


These are just a few things running through my mind right now. I know God has so much for me, and I'm so excited to see what all he has in store. It's time to stop living my life for me, and start living my life for God.


Meagan <3

Dead Until Dark

I was told today if I wrote more in my blog, I'd get more people to read it. So I'll try a little more frequently, now that I have a new amazing Mac Book Pro 13'. Yes it's amazing, I know! So it's saturday, t-minus five days until Cali. I'm so excited its ridiculous. Were flying now instead of driving (Woo hoo!!), and I get a chance to truly try out my new headphones. Today I went to go pick out my bridesmaid dress for my cousins wedding, and got the shoes. Lord have mercy those suckers are high! But oh well, I'll wear them for one of my favorite cousins, who will be a beautiful bride!!! I guess you could say its a lazy day, I just got back from shopping, and therefore feel like doing nothing. It might have to do with me staying up super late at night reading the Sookie Stackhouse books. This is the first book in the series .....

If you haven't read them, and don't mind a some adult vampires, you'd love these books. Twilight has nothing on the these books! The eleventh book just came out, and I cant wait to read it! Im currently on the third book though, re-reading the entire series so my mind is refreshed with the plot when I get to the latest book. If you like the book, you'd LOVE the show.... True Blood. Comes on sunday nights on HBO. Fourth season is about to start!

Anywhoo... I'm just sitting around, enjoying my new Mac book, and counting down the days until Cali. And being a nerd while I'm at it. Countdown to A&M... two months! Oh yeah! I'm pretty sure I've mentioned being ready to go in every blog, but when your that ready to go, your gonna mention it alot :P.


Meagan <3

It's 2 am... Sleep... nah. I'll just write.

Well my summer schedule has got me all kinds of screwed up. It's 2 am, and I can't sleep. Even though I have to be up at 7 am. Just great. Seeing how as I can't stop THINKING, (what else is there to do at night?), I figured I'd just write some. 

So you might be thinking "what does this overdramatic teenager have on her mind tonight?" Don't worry, I'll tell you! Love, college, the future, etc. The first one is just pissing me off. I have so many dang thoughts running through my mind about that one. Im so frustrated right now. I've been dating this dude for four months, and Im so glad were taking things as slow as we are. Im only seventeen years old, Im not ready to be in love. The thought scares me. I have so many years ahead of me to be in love, I don't need it now. I don't know why Im stressing myself out so badly. He understands I want things slow. And he also knows if I were in love with him, I'd let him know. I feel guilty for not being in love with him sometimes. But then again, it has only been four months. Not very long. So I have no idea why Im stressing out. Maybe its just because I always have to have some stupid thing to stress over? I've got no clue really. Were going to california in two weeks though, and I know it'll be an amazing and fun trip.

College... it's looming closer and closer on the horizon. Now that I've officially walked across the stage, the prospect of college seems like a week away. In actuality it's about two and a half months away. Thats not very long though at all. Im so anxious its ridiculous! Im so ready to move to college station, and open up this new chapter! But on the other hand, I have this dreading feeling in the pit of my stomach that I'll go up to A&M and fail. I've heard so many stories of people failing their first semesters. I have scholarships relying on the fact that I wont be one of those people. It's stress. Stress stress and more freaking stress. I thought it'd dissipate when I graduated, but nope. I guess this is life though. Oh well, Im going along for the ride.

My life is just at a standstill right now. Im two weeks into my summer, and I've been pretty dang lazy so far. Its been AMAZING. I've read a few books, worked a few puzzles, got a sunburn, and officially swam in every type of water! Its been a good start, and if I could just stop thinking so much about my future, I'd have a stress free summer for the most part. But will that happen? Probably not. Oh well. I'm still going to have the summer of my life. NOTHING will stand in my way. This will be the summer I say goodbyes, say hellos, and start fresh and cut of ties. It's the summer of possibilities, and the summer I plan to live out some dreams. I pretty much just put myself into a better mood by writing out that paragraph. If i just stop and think about my possibilities and how endless they are, I don't stress so badly. Thats life for ya though :). A whirlwind of constant shifts in emotions!

Meagan <3