V-day, dun dun dun

Valentines day, not the worse day in the year I guess. I woke up today negative as ever, knowing how many balloons and bears I'd see around school. But when I got to school, the first thing I get is a big balloon and a chocolate rose from a friend. Now when your seeing a bunch of other people get crap but not getting things, it sucks. But when you actually get surprised and get something, it's pretty nice :-). Now my friend did it because we were playing around about being each other's valentines because her stupid a-hole of a boyfriend had just broken up with her. And a week before valentines day?! I'm telling ya, they're douches! That's off topic though. But anyways my day got even better because another friend surprised me with a teddy bear and a home made card in 5th period. Here's my bear -----

 Now that (and him) were super sweet! It really brightened my day, mainly because I wasn't expecting ANYTHING! Of course it was cheesy! But were just friends anyways. And the gesture was sweet. I topped the night off with playing some black ops with some friends before going to chick-fil-a with a bunch of people in the same dateless boat as me (with the exception of two). But it was fun, even though some people think its funny to joke about things that they KNOW would piss me off, just because they think it's cute. But oh well, besides that slight incident, my day was good. But honestly, I'm glad the holiday is over. There were a few things I would have liked to happen, but dreams aren't reality, and I knew that. The rest of the week is going to be rough, I can feel it. Tomorrow will be the domino that makes the rest fall. But that's life for you, it doesn't bend to your wants, you have to bend to what it throws at you. Oh well. Until next time....


Meagan <3

I've never been good at games

When it comes to guys, much like every other girl, I'm a mess. I don't know how to play these "games" and I NEVER know what to say. I guess I don't think dating should be as complicated as its become. When your with someone that's worthwhile, it shouldn't all be easy, but it should at least feel right. If people just tried to keep complications out of relationships, things wouldn't be so horrible. I HATE complications. I guess that's why I've decided to wait to date. Its stupid, and I'm only seventeen. I don't NEED a boyfriend, and I never will understand why some girls seem to think they do. The point of a boyfriend is to find your husband not to play some stupid seductive game. If anything, guys should be gentlemen, and girls should be lady's. IT'S NOT A GAME! The viewpoint of this world when it comes to dating has become so twisted is ridiculous. There should be no secrets, no lies, just honesty. Honesty is always the best way to go, and if the other person doesn't like you being you, then screw them. You can always do better than someone who thinks less of you.

And another thing: girls you don't fall in love with every guy you date. Yeah I've been there before, and I've learned just how stupid I sounded throwing around the word carelessly. DONT SAY IT UNLESS YOU MEAN IT. And sorry, but most of you don't mean it as much as you think you do. Love and liking a whole lot are two different things. Love takes time, and it takes effort. Its meant for people who deserve it. So save it, cherish it, and say it when you truly truly mean it. 

I know I probably sound like a typical teenage girl ranting about typical douche bag's, but that's what this blog is about right? Because the feelings we get, the desires; they're normal. It's normal to have a CRUSH (not love) on one or two guys, as I do right now. I'm not dogging dating, you have to date to find the one that's not perfect, but perfect for YOU. Every one's different. I have NO IDEA who I can see myself with in the long run. And honestly, I want to be surprised. For now though, of course I dream! What kind of girl would i be if I didn't? I still get gushy and crap sometimes, but I'm just starting to think things should be taken more seriously. 

If this blog seems random, I'm sorry, but as I wrote more and more kept coming to my head that sometimes was a contradiction. I keep writing, deleting, rewriting, and so on. I keep saying I'm waiting, but I'm not going to lie, because if a guy I thought was sweet and respectful came along that I could see myself dating, I'd definitely date him. The point is, if he's good, we'll find each other. Simple as that.

P.S. This is a good song (and band):

Save your heart by Mayday Parade

Meagan <3

Be my valentine, not!

Sitting at my house while everyone is sleeping has me thinking about an event coming up in twelve days.  Valentines day is coming up soon, or also known as the day all the card and candy companies make all their money. In my own perspective, as a single girl, the whole holiday is a tad bit ridiculous. They give us one day out of the year to show how much we "love" our significant other. Yes it's oh so romantic whenever you have a boyfriend, but when there is a lack in that department, the day is just a day to remind you of the relationship you don't have or need. 

What I'm trying to say is, I dont necessarily hate valentines by any means (hate is a strong word), Im too young to really have had experienced a nice valentines night with the "guy of my dreams". Ha ha. But it shouldn't take one day to make you stop and think about the people you love in your life. Shouldn't sweet things happen randomly? Doesn't that make them evens sweeter? I dont know, its food for thought. 


BUT if you are one of the many that do celebrate here's a tip: Dont go with the roses and the cheesy red teddy bear that says "I love you". Guys if your going to make your girl happy, get her favorite flower, not a cheesy typical rose. And as for a gift, make it from the heart. I promise if she has worth, she will LOVE a gift that has thought into it. I'm sure she'd love it either way, but the latter shows you put a more thought into it ;-).

As a young girl about to really start this thing called life, I've decided to wait. For the lack of good guys in the Houston area, though not all are bad (Sorry Aaron :D) Im just waiting. Because as I get older, things will change, and maybe my opinion of this wretched holiday will as well. Who knows? Maybe something could happen between now and the 14th that could change my opinion of it anyways. I wont know though until it happens. Until then, I'll be ranting :).

Meagan <3

Sleepless in Houston

Listening to: Simple Man - Shinedown
Mood: Restless


As my first blog, I have to say, this is a great way to get thoughts out and organized. First off, my name is Meagan, and I'm seventeen. No, I'm not a teen mom, nor am I addicted to any types of drugs. I'm just a normally unique girl with a good head on her shoulders. But blogging? The thought never really occurred to me until I saw my cousins blog, which is amazing by the way. I've always liked to write down how I was feeling, but never so direct, never throwing it out there in the form of reality. You see I write novels and short stories, never directly putting myself in the story. Well it's time I get out there a little. So this is it, like it or not, this is my life.

In Houston, between the howling wind and frigid temperatures, I find myself unable to sleep because of restless thoughts. Restless of what? Well it could be because I can't stop thinking about what many teenagers find themselves thinking about. College, Life, and the opposite sex. The last option holding the dominance of my thoughts. Though tonight I dont find myself thinking about a particular boy, but a few. Of course there is the one, the "crush", that I have one class with, and have the sickening 2nd grade style crush on. But that boy would take up way to much time for me to explain. And then there's the friend that always seems to be in pain, that used to seem like such a good friend, but is now so distant, so out of reach. Eh, it's complicated. But what in the life of a seventeen year old girl isn't complicated? Maybe my cow, Maggie. She seems to take life pretty easily. I guess I find myself wanting the change in my life that comes in the fall with college. I'm so ready for new faces, new people. Just a new start. I'd like to meet some guys that surprise me, for so far, none in my life has. In this time, it's hard for a girl to find a guy that will court her like God intends. Where has the respect gone boys? Why is chivalry dead? But than can be discussed in a later blog. For now, this is the best I can come up with. 


Yours truly,


Meagan <3